Title: Monsters and Humans Author: M. Kavanagh Betaed by: My Mom Rated: Pg-13, for violence, the discussion of some sexual situation, plus cursing and plenty of angst. Summary: Scully and Krycek are each in their own personal hell, And like two ships that crash in the night. How much damage can they do to each other? Disclaimers: All characters of the X-Files belong to Chris Carter, 1013 Productions and Twentieth Century Fox TV. I know this and boy do they know it. I will not make a dime from the writing of this story. So suing me is a huge waste of time. Plus I have no money! Email: Ballyga@aol.com, because I crave feedback! Flame will be used to make S'mores! Scully sat at the bar on the ground floor of the Hotel Pennsylvania in New York City. She was alone and drunk, or at least in the process of getting there! She was enjoying her fifth Screwdriver, or was it her sixth? To tell the truth she didn't know and she didn't care. She would put the whole damn bill on her Visa. And worry about her alcohol consumption next month. She felt old, ugly and the Day-Glo Orange gown she was wearing did nothing to improve her mood. She knew that she was attracting some attention from the other drunks. How could she not, she was wearing an orange dress?!? One of them got too close and turned away in pain. He covered his face, muttering "my eyes, my eyes!" Scully just giggled, too bad if her burned his retinas looking at her dress. Didn't he know better than to stare at anything this bright? She shook her head and went back to her drink, it was her seventh or no it was definitely her eighth! She glance up and watched, surprised as he entered from the hotel lobby. He looked beautiful, but then again he usually did. No, the difference was that this time he was all cleaned up! He was wearing a tuxedo, a very nice tuxedo, perhaps a custom fit? Of course he had the customary angry/furious look on his face. Which is how Scully knew it really was him and not a figment of the vodka. Alex Krycek was furious as he walked into the cocktail lounge on the main floor of the Hotel Pennsylvania. Once inside he stood still for a moment, blinking his eyes, trying to regain his bearings. Damn, he chided himself, this auto pilot thing has got to stop. One of these days I'll walk myself into traffic. This is crazy! He shook his head and sat down at the bar ordering a straight vodka. He needed to get that bad taste out of his mouth. He frowned into his drink, the mindless wandering had to stop. All it would earn him was a bullet in the head. He gave a sigh, he needed to forget and vodka usually helped. He had come to the hotel with Old Smokey, to a political fund raiser. This time however he wasn't the chauffeur. But rather he was the designated boy toy for the evening. In an attempt to win political considerations, Smokey had lent Alex out. So from cocktail hour to just before the main course, Alex had spent time on his knees, showing off his many talents. When he was finished, Smokey had been waiting for him outside the Men's room. He merely nodded and patting Alex's cheek said, "Go, get a drink and relax." Alex had wanted to hurt Smokey, then and there. He badly wanted to shoot him. But instead he found himself in the hotel lobby, drinking vodka. So maybe auto pilot thing wasn't complete bad. Because if he had stayed he would have murder Smokey. And with all those witnesses, he'd be half way to Riker's by now. He sighed and finished his second drink and was working on his third when he noticed her. How could he have missed her? She was wearing a formal gown, but it was Orange? He couldn't believe it, Scully in an orange ball gown? Was the alien invasion coming tonight? This had to be a sign of the Apocalypse! That dress had killed, it would kill again! Alex watched her carefully, wondering where was her partner? Then it hit him, Scully was by herself! After all Mulder would never stand by watching her being tortured by a piece of clothing! Alex stood up and nursing his drink, wandered over to her. Sure he was playing with fire. But if he didn't play with fire, he'd have no fun at all! He slid into the bar stool next to her and asked, "Agent Scully, are you aware, that it is in direct violation of the Mann Act to kidnap a person. And take them to another State for the expressed purpose of wearing that dress?" Scully shrugged, "That's good to know. I must tell my cousin this." Alex blinked at her, he had expected something nasty/violent or worse yet silence. But to his surprise, Scully seemed willing to play with him! So he went on , "Come on Scully, why are you wearing that hideous beast?" She smiled softly into at the drink in front of her and murmured, "A wedding. My cousin Kathleen got married and bless her pointy little head. She is keeping up with the tradition of dressing her bridesmaids like shit so she can glow!" Alex stopped for a moment, looking the dress over and snorted, "Dana, I have no idea how your cousin looks in her wedding dress. But trust me, next to you, you're the only thing that's actually glowing!" Scully giggled, "I know, I think the dye they used was the same stuff they paint the lines on airport runways..." In a moment of total synergy, they turned to each other and burst out in unison, "So it glow in the dark!!" After much laughter and a few deep breaths Alex noted, A drunk Scully is a fun Scully! As he finished his third drink and ordered his fourth. Scully finished her ninth or was it her tenth? Whatever! And ordered another. She glanced at the man next to her and curiosity getting the better of her asked, "So Mouse Bastard, why are you all dressed up?" Mouse Bastard? Alex chuckled, wasn't that Rat Bastard? Wow is she drunk! He motioned the bartender over and ordered her a cup of coffee. "Well, Dana, I'm here at the hotel with Smokey. We are supposed to be attending a fund raising dinner. But it turns out I was part of the fundrasing!" She turned to him blinking while sipping the coffee, "What does that mean?" He gave a bitter laugh, "It turns out that having Alex on his knees is good for politics. And you would be surprised which upstanding citizen enjoyed having me the most!" He took another deep sip from his vodka as the implications of what he said hit Scully. Alex is a rent boy for the Consortium? She shook her head, well that explains the custom made tuxedo. They had to make sure he looked pretty, that James Dean wanna be look wouldn't do! And damn he does look pretty! Alex took another sip, this time shaky as Scully gave him the once over. Then it hit him. OH, God...had he just told her that he had another man's, another man's...down his throat?!? One of these days his big mouth was going to get him into trouble. He would say the wrong thing to the wrong person. Or the right thing to the right person, whatever. And this angel next to him would be doing the autopsy! He put down the vodka, unfinished and ordered himself a cup of coffee. He protested between sips of coffee, "C'mon Scully, stop looking at me like that...I'm not gay! It has nothing to do with enjoyment. It has to do with power, who has it and who doesn't. And no matter what you or Mulder think, I don't have it!" Scully didn't know what he was talking about. All she knew was tonight he looked beautiful and he smelled good too! She reached out fingering the short hairs at the nape of his neck. So he letting it grow out. I'll bet if he doesn't gel it, it gets all curly! She leaned forward to whisper in his ear," So you're the rent boy of the Consortium?" And watched in amazement as Alex nearly fell off the stool. He caught himself, turning to look at her with pain filled green eyes. But Scully was on a roll. Only an act of God could stop her. "Well, let me tell you that really pisses me off! I mean you worked at the FBI for months and never provided us with such services! But for Cancerman you give it away!" Scully reached out and snagging her purse, opened it and showed him her gun. " That really pisses me off! So why don't you come up to my room and show me how talented you are! Other wise I'll be forced to shoot you here in the bar, Mouse!" Alex was floored, when she fingered his hair, he chalked it up to her being drunk. When she whispered the truth, into his ear. He almost hurt himself falling off the stool. He looked at her surprised that something so small and delicate could hurt him this much! But this, holding him at gunpoint for sex? Oh, man this was crazy! The thing was what should he do? He didn't want to hurt her. He couldn't get to his gun, it was strapped to his ankle. Whereas Dana's gun was within fingertip reach. He might get up and walk away. But with her drunk as she was, he wasn't sure that she wouldn't shoot. After all this was a woman who had shot her partner, and she liked her partner! Or worse yet she might miss him and hit someone else. What a mess?!? He sighed, only one thing to do, go with her and deal with the situation in her room. Yes, that was what he was going to do, it was the safest option! It was amazing, Alex mused that they managed to make it to her room without running into anyone. No one from her wedding reception, no one from his fund raiser. It must be the open bar at both events. Never thought I'd be happy for an endless happy hour, Alex shrugged to himself. The room Dana had booked was okay, probably better than anything Mulder would have gotten. But still it wasn't the honeymoon suite. He was amused that Scully had but both his and her drinks on her Visa. Boy, she was going to have a headache in a month from now! He sat on the bed in anticipation, wondering what this woman would do next. She closed the door behind, pulling the lock across. She put her purse down on a table by the door, placing the gun inside her purse. She turned and gave Alex a slow sexy smile, God it was breathtaking. Well, if that's how she was going to play it he might as well catch the act! Scully sauntered over and taking his face in her hands, she kissed him deep on the lips. Slowly first, softly/sweetly then with each passing second harder with more passion. Alex could feel the throbbing of his heart in his ears. Abruptly she pulled away and studied Alex. She left his, and went over to the night table. She opened the drawer and rummaged around a while before pulling out a hand full of condoms. She returned to Alex, dropping the condoms next to Alex on the bed. He was still a little out of breath, yet he managed to raise an eyebrow. She explained matter of fact," A gift from Mulder. He said that in his experiences, bridesmaids get laid at these events. He just wanted me to be prepared. Alex murmured in a half whisper, "Always the boy scout." Alex was about to ask, just where was Mulder? But Scully was having none of it. Instead she began nibbling on his ear. Hhhhhhmmmmm...that felt nice, very...then it hit him... Scully was trying to seduce him!!! And he couldn't help it, he burst out laughing. Then he immediately regretted it, she pulled away and frowned down at him. "Oh come on Scully, don't get upset! Come on, you have to see the humor here, it's Mouse Boy! You're seducing Mouse Boy, Scully! The question is why? I mean you hate me. I was there when Cardinale shot your sister and I did nothing. I was there when Bill Mulder was killed and I did nothing. That's what I do, I'm an assassin, a hired thug. I get paid to hurt and yes, kill others. When I'm not performing on my knees." Alex pulled away and stepped around Scully. He headed for the door and stopped, turning to Scully. "Look, we shared a few drinks, had a few laughs. It was a great evening, buts lets face it we live in the real world. Good night Scully." Krycek was almost out the door when he was stopped by her voice. "Alex?" Alex?! She had never called him that, even when he worked at the FBI. The funny thing was that Alex really was his name, Krycek was an alias. "Alex?, Did you ever wish you could just change your life?" Alex was mired in quicksand. How was he supposed to answer that question? Did it even have an answer? He needed to leave now, but he just stood there trapped. Before he knew it, Scully was standing behind him, with her hand touching the small of his back. "Alex do you ever dream you were someone else, someone completely different from who you are now? Alex pulled away from her and started pacing, back and forth, he snarled like a trapped panther. "Shut up, just shut up!!!! Okay Scully!!! Stop with the questions! I don't know...I don't have anyanswers! I don't know!! ...Yeah... maybe... Maybe I wish I were... Mulder okay. I wish I were like Mulder, you know pure of heart, you know Sir Galahad, a knight in shining armor. But I'm not, I sold out a long time ago..." Alex just stopped and stood in the middle of the floor, staring at the bed, staring at nothing. Behind him began a soft bitter laugh, he turned to find Scully holding her sides, out of breath. "You wish you were like Mulder? You wish you were my self absorbed myopic partner? Unbelievable! Do you know why I'm here at this wedding alone? Because at the last minute he decided to go hunting for Mermaids in the Florida Keys!!! He promised he would come, but he changed his mind! Do you know how often the bastard ditches me? It has practical become a national past time!!! He take me for granted! He only appreciates me when I'm gone, then he freaks!!! Only when I threaten to leave, does he attempt to kiss me!!! Manipulative bastard!!! He used my emotions against me, to obtain his objectives!!!" "And what does Mulder want? Does he want me? Oh, no! He wants little gray men, Mermaids and Voodoun Priestess, Vampires and Spontaneous Combustion! He says, I want to know the truth... the truth...it's right in front of him! But he doesn't want to see it! He doesn't want to see my love for him! He doesn't want to know our truth, the truth that exists between us! That's because to him, "US" doesn't exists! I'm only his partner, Scully, his personal girl Friday! And you Alex, want to be like him! You want to be unable to know love or accept love! She let go a long, deep sigh, "I feel so old, ugly and it's not just this dress... I feel so unwanted..." Alex turned walked over to Scully and pulled her into his arms, "Dana, you are not old, ugly or unwanted. The problem with Mulder is that he doesn't see you, not as you are, not what you have become. He still sees you as a naive, eager and ambitious but inexperience field agent. In some ways, he sees you as a surrogate for his missing sister." Scully turned her head to look up at Alex, "And you? How do you see me?" Alex shook his head," Oh, you don't want to know how I see you!" Scully held her ground, determined, "I think I do!" "Really??" Alex stopped for a moment as if considering something, then he kissed her. What a kiss! Scully could feel it all the way to her toes. She felt all tingly like she was being tickled. Hhhmmmm, she thought as she leaned into the kiss. Abruptly Alex pulled back from her. She opened her eyes to find him looking down at her with a bemused smile. But his eyes, they were a shade of green she was sure she had never seen before. His eyes, she felt as if she was sinking into them. As Alex reached up to brush back a stray hair from her forehead, someone knocked on the door. The knock was felt as an intrusion. It broke the air of enchantment surrounding them. Stepping back, Scully turned around and opened the door asking, "Yes, can I help you?" The phrase was out of her mouth, before she recognized the man in the hallway. She blinked twice before she realized that no, she wasn't having hallucination, Cancerman was really standing at the door!!!! He was standing there pulling a drag from the cigarette hanging from his mouth. Cancerman smiled politely and asked "Agent Scully, if you don't mind I would like to speak to Alex?" Scully was floored, how did he know Alex was here, even now Alex was standing behind the door! But Cancerman answered her unasked question, pushing forward. Thus forcing Scully to retreat and open the door, exposing Alex behind it. " Cancerman began, "I saw earlier that you were holding a gun to Alex. As you both were walking over to the elevators. I merely assumed that you were bringing him here for an interrogation. Although..." Cancerman eyes roamed beyond Scully, over Alex's form and on to the bed, taking note of the condom wrappers. He continued"...I can see now that interrogation is rather a strong word. Still if I may come in, I really would like to speak to Alex." Scully gave a sigh and flung open the door, "Sure come on in." She would have rather have shot him, or arrested him or even beaten the crap out of him!!! But it wasn't illegal to get dressed up in a tux, knock on a door and ask to speak to Alex. Unfortunately! She close the door and turned to see the two men size each other up. Alex was transformed, it was as if he had become a mannequin. His face, his body and his voice betrayed no emotions. Only his eyes glittered a cold green fire. He broke the tension in the room by asking in a flat voice," So you found me. What do you want?" Cancerman put a fatherly smile on his face, "What do I want? Alex! I thought you would be happy to see me? I thought I was getting you out of a dangerous situation, my boy!" Alex only blinked, "Get me out of a dangerous situation? Scully now constitutes a danger?? How many times have you place my life on the line? How many times have I stared into the abyss? And you want to save me from Red? Since when do you care?" "Care? Alex, oh I care! I'll admit in the past I may not have been connected to my emotions. But since I've come back from my surgery, I've gained a new understanding of those around me. And my boy, I am very fond of you!" Alex closed his eyes, shaking his head, "When the devil says he cares about you, it is definitely time to give up on atheism. With that Alex opened his eyes and glancing at Scully. "Whatever you do don't take off the cross, it's the only thing stopping him from taking your soul." He turned back, giving Cancerman a rather pointed look, "Now that you can see I'm okay, you can leave!" Cancerman shook his head, "I'm afraid not, Alex. It's late, it is after midnight. It is time for us to go home." Scully blanched and stepped back, out of the line of fire between the two men. Go home? Alex is living with Cancerman, in his house, under his thumb? That was something she really didn't need to know! Alex had become visibly upset, he stared to pace back and forth like an agitated cat. "What are you, my father now?! Telling me when to go to bed?" He hissed through clenched teeth ,"Let me tell you something. I only work for you! You pay me a check. I came to the party. I fulfilled my obligations. I'm off the clock now. So back off!!! I'll come home when I'm damn good and ready!!! Cancerman tilted his head as if to consider what Alex had said, then he commented. "Alex it is only good manners to leave a party with the person you came with. Other wise it will look as if you're ditching me like I'm a bad date. ." Alex flinched as the last words were spoken. Cancerman continued," It's late and I came to fetch you to go home." Alex recovered and snarled, "Go home? Go back to hell, old man!!!!" Cancerman nodded "Okay Alex, you're an adult. You can make your own choices." Cancerman turned and headed for the door, then stopped. "Although, I should let you know that at what ever time you do get home, the pharmacy will be closed. You will have to get through tonight without any help." Alex stopped pacing and turned back to Cancerman. His pupils were constricted and there was sweat on his upper lip. There was fear on his face, Scully noted. Alex just stood staring at Cancerman's back. His husky voice cracked, "I see, so you're taking the Demerol away. And if I still say no, what's next. Will you pull a gun and threaten to blow Scully's head off? " Cancerman turned back, "Why would I threaten the lovely Agent Scully? Alex, I'm just reminding you that all actions have consequences. And that you have to be prepared to accept the results of your actions." Alex's voice dropped in to a harsh whisper, he muttered, "Just who the hell do you think you are? Why won't you leave me alone?" Then in a spurt of rage, he reach out to the night table in front of him. Picking up the glass ashtray Alex smashed it against the wall. Alex closed his eyes and passed his hand over his face. After several shaky breaths, Alex looked at Cancerman. "Alex..."Cancerman began but Alex interupted. "Fine, okay, whatever...I'll leave with you but I'm using the bathroom first.!" He turned and made a beeline for the bathroom. He neither looked at Cancerman or Scully. Cancerman called after him, "Of course, Alex you'll need to after all the vodka you drank this evening." Alex's only reply was to slam the door, hard. Cancerman looked at the shattered ash tray in disgusts, then finding a glass put out his butt. He turned and found Scully watching dispassionately. "Well, Agent Scully, I must say that despite that dress, you do look beautiful tonight. However you must admit that your cousin has strange taste. I gather she is going for a Halloween theme wedding, with this being October and that dress being orange." Scully only stared down Cancerman, "The dress is peach!" Cancerman never had the chance to reply to Scully. Because the bathroom was flung open and Alex came out. Another Alex came out, gone was the fear, the anger or nervousness. It was replaced by Bad Boy Alex. The Alex who would do what ever it took to survive. And it was all a facade! Scully knew this the way you know when you are being lied to, she knew. There was nothing she could do, it was making her sick. "Ready to go Boss!" And as Alex eyed the condoms spread out on the bed, he asked, "Scully, do you mind if I grab a few?" Scully managed to choke out a reply, "Sure, go ahead." Alex reach down, grabbing a handful and shoving them in his pocket. He turned and catching Cancerman's eye, he smirked, "I never know where I'll be, when I need these!" Alex turned, walked over to Scully and scooped up her hand. He kissed her with reverence, Scully shuddered softly. He looked up, offering her a sweet smile , "Good night Scully. And tell Mulder, If I were him, I would never ditch you for Mermaids, never Scully." Then rising up, he turned and eyeing Cancerman, "Come on Boss! I'm tired. I want to go home....If I have to wait for you at the limo, I'm leaving you behind! He turned and strolled out the door and down the hall. Cancerman nodded and to Scully spoke, "Good night Agent Scully! Forgive us for interrupting what I'm sure was a lovely evening." He turned and followed Alex down the hall. Scully slammed the door behind them. She walked over to the bed, sinking into the soft blankets. It may have been that she was tired from the wedding festivities. Or that she had, had too many drinks. Or that the reality of Alex's life was too much to take. Or it was a combo of all three. But for what ever reason, Scully passed out. A few minutes later...in a limousine speeding uptown. Alex had settled deeply into the back seat of the limo. He was looking out the window to his left. He was ignoring the man seated to his right. He was able to ignore the needle slide into his right arm. He was able to ignore the rush of chemicals into his blood stream. The Demerol would make the Phantom Limb pain go away. So tonight he would be able to sleep. He was busy, ignoring the mumbling of the man next to him. He ignored, "my pretty boy" and "I'll Always care for you" and "Senator so and so thinks..." Yes, Alex had become good at ignoring thing around him. But he couldn't ignore himself. He couldn't ignore his own heart. He knew he was a boy toy. He was an instrument of the man next to him. He was Cancerman's Monster. He knew this. And he could do nothing about it. So he continued to look out the window. And he watched as the pretty lights of New York City went by, with tear filled eyes. A few hours later....Scully woke up, tangled in sheets, bedspreads and that damn orange dress. She had fallen asleep with the light's on. Her head felt like an over ripe melon. Or maybe rather an over ripe pumpkin. With a grown, she though, I have to give up drinking, it's killing me! How did Skinner survive his divorce with all the drinking he did? There has got to be a X-File there! Well, it is time to get rid of this dress. Maybe I'll give it to the Three Geeks. They could probably use glow in the dark material. She found the alarm clock, it was now 5 AM and her head hurt. She stood up and unzipped the dress, kicking it away. She frowned, looked at her feet and flung off the matching sandals. She padded over to the bathroom in stocking feet, looking for a Motrin*. She got lucky and found a bottle in her makeup bag. Leaning over the sink, something stung her toe. Ouch! She reached down and pulled from her foot a pin. Or no, rather a cuff link. She looked at it a moment, blinking at it. It was Alex's cuff link! She knew it! She had seen it on his wrist last night. Out of curiosity she took the cuff link and pulled it across the mirror. It left a scratch behind. It was a diamond all right! Cancerman had really dressed Alex like a gigolo last night. Scully sat down on the toilet, in tears, "Poor Alex." She wanted to hate him, She needed to hate him. With all the things he had done. With everything he was guilty of. But she couldn't, not any more. Not with what she had seen or now knew. During all these years she had seen him as a Monster. But not any more, for last night Alex Krycek had become Human. *denotes a brand name of ibuprofen pain reliever The End... if you made it this far, Thank You! Why not take the time and tell me what you think. Are you annoyed that Alex and Dana never got lucky? Are you upset that Cancerman showed up, acting creepy? Let me know! Ballyga@aol.com